Things I miss

Every now and then, through the course of normal life events, something happens to remind me that I am physically by myself now and I thought, as part of my own healing process, I would share it with whoever reads this.

As some of you may know I take the commuter train to and from work. Occasionally the train will be delayed for whatever mechanical reason. The most recent time this occurred I, for whatever reason, noticed that in my particular train car I was the only one not on my cell phone calling someone to tell them I’d be late.

Upon realizing this I had two identical thoughts. No one cares if I’m late, as in I have no responsibility to any individual to be around at a certain time. And, no on cares if I’m late, as in no one is wondering (in a caring or loving way) why I am not home at my usual time.

This story brings me to the general theme of this entry and it’s things I miss about being with someone. This is just a general list:

1.      Feeling needed

2.      Feeling missed

3.      Sharing accomplishments and life’s little moments with another person

4.      Noise (when you live alone the silence can be deafening)

5.      Hugs

6.      Getting compliments

I’m sure there are more things I could add to this list but these were the things at the forefront of my mind. Just a few things that occasionally make me stop and realize, my life is very different now.

Thanks for reading,

-Jay